Have you ever made a decision for your life and been totally convinced it was right only to find out you were wrong? At the end of last year, I was convinced that this year I needed more down time for me. And I was justified! Last year was hard. I was overwhelmed, exhausted, and both emotionally and physically depleted. This was not a want; this was a need. I needed more “me” time.
But I was wrong.
More time for me is what I wanted. But it is not what God wanted. He wanted me to spend more time with Him!
What’s more is He made it very clear to me. Within days of laying out my fantastic plan for my year, two things happened back-to-back. First, Mark and I were at a conference where we got to preview a powerful movie called War Room which will be released in late August. There were three central themes in the movie that really hit home with me. The movie follows the story of a woman whose family is falling apart. She meets an odd older woman who befriends her and shares her “war room” with her–a record of prayers for all the people she has prayed for–a legacy of love.
Ah, I remember thinking if I were to die (remember, I have lots of heart issues so I was not being morbid, just realistic) would my children find such a record of love? A record of my heart for them poured out in prayer?
No, they wouldn’t. I was convicted. I needed to spend more time praying.
The second experience that God used to soften my heart toward Him and His desire for me was a Christmas coffee where a woman named Betsy Leslie shared a system she uses to intentionally pray for people by writing them down and marking the card every time she prays. She had notecards with hundreds of marks on them. Another legacy of love.
A plan was forming in my brain–a new plan for the year. The only part of my big “plan for me” this year that had anything to do with God was that I needed to read the Bible more and memorize some verses. What if I actually chose verses to pray for people? How efficient is that?
Suddenly I realized, my selfish justification for “me time” was what I wanted, not what God wanted. I was justified, but I was wrong. I’ve found that there’s usually this tension between what I desire and what God desires for me. And it goes like this…
I have learned that His way is better. Either…
We must choose to either open our eyes and open our heart to conviction or close our eyes and harden our hearts. There are few things scarier to me than what can happen to someone who hardens his or her heart. The Bible gives a striking example in Exodus with Pharaoh who hardened his heart to God when Moses and Aaron came before him to plead on behalf of the Israelites. In Exodus 7, Moses and Aaron confronted Pharaoh with the message that God had given them. Pharaoh asked for a miracle to prove that they were speaking on behalf of God, which they performed for him. But he hardened his heart and would not listen to God’s words. In the following chapters, he continued to harden his heart, despite seeing clearly the works of God, until eventually the Bible says that God hardened his heart. After several times of ignoring the words of the Lord, Pharaoh lost even the choice to have a heart that was open to the voice of God.
Yikes. That’s scary! I definitely do NOT want my heart to become hardened.
Long story. But in this case, I confronted the tension between what God wanted for me and what I wanted for me. I am learning verses and, purposefully, praying and I am so happy–I love seeing the record of dots growing. I don’t pray every day, my record is not perfect, but I have a plan (the dots are prayers!).
The movie I mentioned above, War Room, has a 30 Day Prayer Challenge. If you download the challenge, you are automatically entered to win four tickets to the movie release on August 28th and a $100 Visa gift card. Perhaps you should take the challenge and confront the tension between what you want and what God wants for you
|Posted On: July 30, 2015 Love This||2 Comments|
I have recently discovered a new way to make burgers… have you ever tried a lamb burger? Oh my, it is so delicious! Your kids would never know that it wasn’t ordinary beef, and better yet, lamb is comparable in price! You can spice them up however you would like, but these are so yummy and simple. Top them with anything you have in the house, but I did feta cheese, tomatoes, onion aioli and lettuce. So fire up the grill and have a little fun!
1. What do you like to do for fun?
2. What is your favorite way to relax?
3. What makes you laugh the most?
|Posted On: May 14, 2015 Sunday Suppers||Leave a comment|
Have you ever wondered how some people have so much courage? Have you ever thought to yourself, I am not nearly as brave as so-and-so? Or that because you are ‘just a mom’ you don’t have the grit that some others do?
The truth is, you are brave, you are courageous–because you are a mom. A mom who loves her kids so much that she would be willing to sacrifice anything and everything for them. To me, that is the most selfless, better yet, most noble thing you can do.
The Noble movie is coming to theaters tomorrow, May 8th. I want to make you aware that this movie exists because, like a lot of really good movies that tell a story of hope, it won’t get block-buster advertising dollars. It is a heartbreakingly beautiful movie about a forsaken child who becomes a woman, triumphs over adversity and turns her past into a passion that saves lives–children’s lives. And just like you, her nobility and courage comes from being a ‘mother’ to many.
Make it a girl’s night out and go see Noble!
|Posted On: May 07, 2015 Be Encouraged||Leave a comment|